Finally stopping and thinking about myself. Trying to discern the things that I want and the things that will actually be good and healthy for me. I am ready to make changes about the things and people that hold me down in life, now I just need to figure out how. Tonight I got rid of some old messages and mementos from the past that in reality only hurt me to remember. Hopefully this makes growing up a little easier. Time to get thinking and doing.
Last year I started a tumblr challenge that I didn’t finish because I got stuck on one post. The challenge for the day was to write a litter to myself stating what I loved about myself. I couldn’t do it. And everytime since then that I found myself hating myself, I thought of that challenge and how I could never answers. Well, I think I have an answer now:
Sup? Exploring Religions is pretty boring right? So. Why I love you. I know it’s been a pretty rough year since last September, but you are making a lot of progress. That’s one thing that I love about you: you don’t give up on yourself, or on other people. Many of your best friends are people you thought you’d never be friends with. You never let your first impression of people permanently scar your opinion of them, unless it is absolutely justified. Even the assholes in the world have a little bit of good in them, or need some good but are struggling.
As someone put it a few weeks ago, you are “real.” You aren’t phony with people, especially about what you do or do not like. Life is to short to pretend in order to make others happy. You know what you want from people and what you deserve.
Though you do not want it, you are not afraid of being alone. Having a significant other is wonderful, but as the past has shown, if it comes down to it, life goes on.
You are finally testing your limits by taking on new responsibilities and stepping out of your bubble.
You are scared of the future but you are so, totally, open to it.
You also have the best taste in like, everything. Except for maybe your sense of style. We probably need to work on that…
But yeah, love you!